Re: It happens every now and again. Disappearing.
I totally get where you're at, Jeff. The only counter that I would like to make is that your playing is great, but sometimes that's not enough to keep us motivated. For me the motivation is learning, when I feel I am getting nowhere I learn a new technique or idea, practice it along side the other things I had previously been having problems with, then after a while I discover that I have I can do the previously difficult thing, so focusing on something new seems to help me raise the bar.
At the moment, like Fire, I feel like I'm on the up playing wise. I got back into it last year and have never looked back. It has been and continues to be a struggle, the difference is that in a few months I have learned things I previously considered impossible for me. I still sound like ****, but the love is back for it. I have off days where I play and feel like I can't do anything, but I force myself to play for at least a half hour. Then on a good day I won't feel 3 hours pass.
I see my playing as being ugly, but as I practice and study it becomes less ugly. Someone once told me that engaging in any difficult endeavour that you love is like being a sailor who loves the ocean. On a calm sunny day, it's the most beautiful place in the world. Then a storm whips up and the ship pitches and rolls, he hates the ocean and curses it. However, if he can keep sight of the fact that even in the foulest weather it's the same ocean he loved in fine weather and there will be fine weather ahead, he will keep his love for the ocean. Maybe you just need some time ashore.
It's good to take a break, but stay in touch and if you hear a track that inspires you please jump in.