Please Help Me.. I'm getting ripped apart here..
Okay, so pretty much, this is the most embarrassing / personal story in the entire universe, but I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!
*deep breath* My best friend is on Jemsite, chances are he will probably see this, but really, this is just driving me insane.
He has been my best friend for almost TWO YEARS, and I love him SOO much. Like, I care more about him than anyone in the world (except my mom, she's like.. GOD to me) and anyways!! I just .. GAH. I don't know! Lately it's been really hard for me to like, DEAL with him liking this other girl. And you all are probably like, "Ah, how stupid is she? She's just a teenage girl, she knows NOTHING." Well, I do know something, and I know how I feel. I think I like him.. Or more than that. And when I'm around him, I lose all self control. It's absolutely ridiculous. Today, we sat in my room and screamed Steve Vai and Van Halen at the top of our lungs. We went swimming, headbanged, and um.. crashed our heads. (That might contribute to why I'm going insane.) ANYWAYS.
What the HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!?? He's my best friend, and I don't want that to change, because.. whatever.. teenage "relationships" don't work out, EVER, and I don't want to lose my best friend. Am I supposed to like, distract myself, with someone else? No... That would be wrong.. That'd be like USING someone, and I WOULD NEVER DO THAT!